To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
As I approached the milestone of 40, I began to notice shifts in my life and perspective, a constant tug on my heart. I had spent years climbing the corporate ladder, creating a career based on “spinning” the perfect story, releasing the next bestseller. All the while, my life was slowly falling apart and very few people knew the truth of what I was living behind closed doors.
At 40, I quit my job as a VP at one of the top book publishing companies, opting to leave it all behind and venture into the unknown. It was a well-intended attempt to save my marriage and give my children an experience that would forever impact their perspective on humanity. I sold my home, packed up our life and we made our way to Australia.
Just short of two years later, I found myself boarding a flight back to America with my children in tow. A journey that began as a family of four, returning home as three. Sometimes our best intentions simply aren’t aligned with the divine plan for our life.
Scared and not knowing what came next, I decided to take a chance and redefine my life. I could have crumbled from the weight of it all, but something kept pushing me to move forward and create a life that would allow for both the space and freedom I needed to walk my children through our next chapter and build the life I knew we all deserved.
In doing so and letting this idea of my perfectly “spun” life unravel, I stepped into a place of trust and realized that while life is messy, it is in those moments that God calls us to grow, to learn, and rise above. Life doesn’t always turn out the way you expect. And that’s okay.
My entire life had to become undone so I could truly start living again.
After returning and allowing myself some time to heal, I poured into my business and loving my children. Little by little, our new life began to take shape. With each new challenge, we learned to find our silver lining, never allowing life or circumstances to keep us down for long. Sure, we stumble just like everyone else, but it’s what we do in those moments that propel us forward.
I learned to accept that everything can change in an instant and to embrace the here and now. Change as life changes. Allow yourself to get unstuck from the idea of what you thought your life was supposed to look like.
We settled into our new life and do our best to love well. We live on our own terms. We take things day by day and live in the moments, even when they are messy and uncertain.
And sometimes, just when you accept your new normal, you realize God’s plan for your life doesn’t end there.
This is our Life, UnSpun.
She founded SPIN Literary in 2017, leading the company for 4+ years before stepping back into a leadership role within the industry.
She is also a contributor for numerous national and international media outlets and is a guest speaker for colleges and universities across the globe.